I was just a plain, ordinary looking girl who was not good enough for him. There was nothing unusual in me. I was not smart, not even talented enough for him to be contented with me. It was only my pure heart that I could offer to him. However, I can guarantee that my love for him was real and I promised to love just him forever and expected him to feel the same. However, it didn’t happen.
After nine years of being married to him, I finally decided to end everything. Yes, I let go of him. I could never stay under one roof with him after knowing his infidelity! I was crushed. I pitied myself. I lost self-confidence. I lived in pain, in fear of what could happen when he was no longer with me. I suffered from depression. I abandoned myself. I forgot for a while that we have a son. I blamed myself for being so ordinary. We became the talk of the town, and that made it more difficult. Every time I went out, I could see pity on people’s face. Some were so insensitive that they spoke to me about my husband and his mistress! He destroyed me!
However, that was four years ago. I have got over that tragedy in my life and have finally moved on. I came to realised that what happened made me the best person I can be. I may have lost a husband, but I still have my son and family. God was there for me and even my friends and relatives. I realised a person like him does not deserve me, and I do not deserve him either because I deserve the best! The incident taught me a valuable lesson: to love myself and be proud of who I am. Yes, I look at myself now as a beautiful woman moulded by that event in life. I am strong. I am a survivor.
By Sarilyn C. Agoo
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